OK, this is how I feel about whatever has happened.
1. I'm not trusted. On a very basic level.
2. I'm unreliable. Like a friend put it - "they are afraid you would drop out again". Again? Hmmm, interesting.
3. I don't care much for popularity - I don't even know what it stands for, in this context.
It's more about being trusted to do something well, and I wasn't trusted. It was more like an indirect appreciation or acknowledgment of things I'd done, more like, "OK, you've performed your role well, so far, so we can now TRUST you and expect you to do more stuff." The keyword is TRUST. And it just isn't there.
If they thought I'd be overburdened with more things to do, it again boils down to, they didn't trust me to handle anything.
I don't know how a person proves he/she is still around (in other words: hasn't dropped out - again). Show his/her presence everywhere? I'm present where I'm needed. Everything is up-to-date.
So I wasn't trusted. Again.
I don't care for it, really. I did stuff because I liked everything, and I loved everyone. It's just that... I'm not trusted. That rankles.
